One of the worst feelings in the world is walking into class on a test day, having not studied or even glanced at any of the material covered in class the past few weeks. You've done it before, we all have, because it's either an easy class and we know it will be an easy test, or we're lazy, we don't care, until we walk into class and feel the knot of failure in our throats. You know no matter what you put down on that test paper it will be bad news in the end, and you will have to live with the consequences, the big fat zero when you get the test back. Always hated that feeling, not knowing the material, feeling like a complete idiot when everyone else around you seems to know what the answer to number two is. So you glance over to the paper beside you, doesn't hurt, they are helping you, they just don't know it. What harm is it using someone else's work, someone else had prepared ahead of time, you won't do it again. Next test you will be prepared, but for now, let's see what Jane got for number two. But what if Jane doesn't know what she's doing either, she might just be writing random things down on the page so she can hit up the gym sooner than later. Maybe Jane is in the same boat you are, having not studied, she just hides it better than you.That's the tricky thing about cheating. Sometimes that kid next to you doesn't know what they're doing either.
It seems like college is the same way, been here for a month and it feels like I haven't studied for this type of test. You have no idea where your life is going just like walking into a classroom on test day, not knowing what's on the test paper. So you start hanging with people who seem like they know what they're doing, they know college, they have experience, so in a since you cheat on their life, steal their attitude. Before you know it you end up where you started, confused because you're not sure what this college thing is all about. Starting college is starting a new step in life, except you have no idea what's ahead of you. It's a scary feeling, you haven't prepared for this type of freedom, this since of responsibility. What will you do with yourself? Are you going to be the kid who cheats on someone else's paper, getting into the wrong crowd and following their example, or you going to bow up and live the life you were meant to live.
God has a plan, I just know it. I walked into college two months ago, unprepared and confused because I don't have the answers. What I can rest assured in however is that the answers have been accounted for and no matter the failures I find myself in, I don't have to live life afraid of what's to come. I have the answers written upon my heart and no matter who I find myself around, I don't have to cheat on myself by living the world, because I know God has paid the price and that this feeling of not knowing, it's going to come, but I can know my God has the end all figured out. He's the playwright, I'm just a character in his play.
